I think I'm going to Puke

No, my stomach isn't hurting THAT bad... I am simply a bundle of nerves. I have a large bruise where I injected the trigger shot last night, and it is so tender to the touch, something that I didn't experience in the 2 weeks of injections leading up to last night. Although I am swollen, and have some sharp pains in my sides when I move around... I am comfortable as I lay in the bed with my laptop next to me. This is the only position that gives me comfort.

The moment has nearly arrived, and I now find myself so nervous... so unsure... so chaotic. I have not allowed to think of the "what ifs" through the last 6 weeks... but now I am looking at that concern head on. I have so much riding on the next 72 hours... all my dreams, my hopes and my desire to love a new child seems almost over whelming.

How do I stay calm? No wonder they sent me home with a valium for tonight. Would any woman really be able to sleep the night before a retrieval without it?

I feel like a million mice are scurrying around in my head, not willing to stop and allow for rational thoughts to form. I am a mess...

Please let tomorrow go ok....