The Waiting Game
9 days since my eggs were retrieved
6 days since they placed those precious embryos back into me for safe keeping
3 days since selling our home in anticipation of moving to our dream home in September
2 days since a difficult and confusing Father's Day
1 day since returning to work from time off for IVF
5 days until I will allow myself to pee on a stick to see if I am in fact pregnant
9 days until the official pregnancy test at the doctor's office.
It's a waiting game. Each day brings new worries, new questions, new milestones... and I find myself in a state of turmoil in this all important 2 week wait. I have been feeling sure about this cycle, knowing that my positive outlook was important to success, and sensing that this really could be "it".
How do I keep this inner peace and confidence without blinding walking into a potential heartbreak should this not be the month it all happens for us? How will I pick up and move on? How will we keep it together?
That is my fear for today... not that I am not pregnant, but on how I will feel should I not be pregnant... I don't even know if that makes sense.
And so I wait...
4 hours until my next progesterone suppository
5 hours until my next estrogen pill
8 hours until I can fall asleep... and be one day further through this two week wait.
6 days since they placed those precious embryos back into me for safe keeping
3 days since selling our home in anticipation of moving to our dream home in September
2 days since a difficult and confusing Father's Day
1 day since returning to work from time off for IVF
5 days until I will allow myself to pee on a stick to see if I am in fact pregnant
9 days until the official pregnancy test at the doctor's office.
It's a waiting game. Each day brings new worries, new questions, new milestones... and I find myself in a state of turmoil in this all important 2 week wait. I have been feeling sure about this cycle, knowing that my positive outlook was important to success, and sensing that this really could be "it".
How do I keep this inner peace and confidence without blinding walking into a potential heartbreak should this not be the month it all happens for us? How will I pick up and move on? How will we keep it together?
That is my fear for today... not that I am not pregnant, but on how I will feel should I not be pregnant... I don't even know if that makes sense.
And so I wait...
4 hours until my next progesterone suppository
5 hours until my next estrogen pill
8 hours until I can fall asleep... and be one day further through this two week wait.
posted by moi at
2:02 PM
3 Comments:
Good luck to you! I hope this time goes by quickly for you
Debbi
another cyclesista
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Debbi, at 1:51 PM
I just started my 2ww yesterday and I can totally relate to what you are feeling. I am just trying to have faith and living day by day.
By
Jamie, at 12:45 PM
hang in there sweetie, it's almost over. I sure hope this is it for you!!
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Nickie, at 2:24 PM
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